Only two days until the new year!

  How can this be? Only two more days until the New Year, weren't we just celebrating 2013? Now 2014 is almost upon us and in all honesty I am very glad about that. There is so much I am longing to explain here on the blog about my life and all that has happened to my family and I this past year but it will just have to wait until the next year. This year has probably been the hardest most terrifying year of my life, most of it was excruciatingly painful mentally and spiritually, and I unfortunately cannot say that much good has come out of any of this...yet. I pray everyday that we will prosper after all that has been done to us and I hope one day the questions I have pondered on a daily basis will eventually be answered.
  The pain I have kept hidden away for so long has been eating away at my soul, mocking me and tauntingly exclaiming how unfair my life is, however can I possibly go on. But try as I might to push it away that voice of darkness nags me day after day, night after night never ceasing its relentless plan to destroy who I am. I was angry at God for awhile, hurt beyond all measure and almost lost touch with him. You are all probably lost right now about what I am talking about but soon I will write a series of blog posts about what transpired during the year 2013. I am in the process of healing, slowly but surely I can fell the seams of my torn heart slowly being sown back together. That's the hardest thing though, once something is broken there will always be scars that sometimes never fade. I will never forget this year, nor will I want to remember it either, one day maybe God will provide me with the answers and then again maybe he won't I really don't know.
  I am ready though, ready to move on with my life and make something of myself and seek God's wisdom and guidance wherever he may lead me. A whole new year is waiting just around the corner, it's time to take the last few steps to reach the beginning of my new season of life. It's time to move on.


 Although life has been hard, it didn't stop us from having a great Christmas, it was not over the top like it normally is every year, but the gifts we gave were more personal and practical which I really thought was a nice change. I also celebrated my birthday on December the 19th, I'm 19 years old now!! When on earth did 19 years of my life go by, it's crazy, simply crazy. I had the best gingerbread cupcakes (gingerbread anything is absolutely my favorite food, seriously I could devour the stuff.) I ate two cupcakes, but hey my birthday only comes once a year so a little splurge is well deserved every so often. Normally I am on a pretty strict diet with lots of fresh food (for example I just downed a whole cup of a healthy homemade pumpkin banana smoothie lol!) and lots of exercise but not that day!! I got an adorable tea pot and my dad took us to see The Hobbit the Desolation of Smaug which was absolutely fantastic!!! I loved it and actually want to see it again. Here are a few photos!

Hot Cider and Peanut Butter Chocolate Caramel Hershey Kiss Cookies for Santa

 

 

Close up

 

 

 Another photo!

 

 

Beautiful Christmas Eve sky

 



Although I don't have a camera of my own my cell phone doesn't do too bad of a job taking photos especially because I was power walking, a car was coming and my little brother was starting to get a bit antsy in his stroller. All in all the sky photos weren't too bad?

 

                      And my delicious cupcakes my mom made me for my birthday! I though she did an amazing job. I couldn't eat the gingerbread children because of my soy allergy but the cupcake was simply divine! I was in heaven the rest of the night and craved them while we were watching The Hobbit.

 

 

 

And here is a little video of encouragement:

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Gvt__r9EU0

 

Have an awesome New Year!!

 



Photo update!

 

Well how do you all do? It is time that I post more photos here as my blog is really lacking in that area. So here we go!




Our Christmas tree complete with lights and decoration.



My sister Faith, myself, and my dog Ryder. Well at least part of him!



Funny face moment, my sister thought I was pretty odd but hey we all have our moments.

 

A decent picture of myself and Ryder.

 

 

These next few photos are from this past summer so they are not quite so old. I am so glad that summer has past though, I could not bare the heat of the sun's hot rays any longer. North Carolina gets so darn hot it's absolutely ridiculous as I am not accustomed to such extreme heat. Although I don't mind the mild winters, if only we had snow... but enough rambling it's time I show some photos!

Adorable baby bunny that we rescued from my uncles wild cats.

 

Faith and my baby brother Brayden riding Prancer their ever faithful horse.

 

 

And after a storm a magnificent rainbow appeared over the newly tilled fields while we were out driving.

 

 

Rays of sunlight breaking through the gray clouds, it was absolutely breathtaking.

 

 



And I think I shall end with this photo. It reminds me of how even when we feel like there is no hope left and seems as though Satan is about to win, God breaks down the enemies walls and triumphs over the darkness, to God alone we will praise, to God alone is his glory. There is no one else like him, how can we not love Him?

Finally some long awaited photos.



These are not the most recent up to date photos, but I think they will do just fine for now. All of the photos I am about to show here were taken in Rhode Island not in North Carolina, but I hope you all enjoy them just the same!



  Flowing river in the park



At the time this was the newly repaired bridge, you could smell the fresh wood and the protective stain that was applied just days before.



My sister gazing at the water on the bridge.



A never ending path, I would walk along that path forever daydreaming about so many things.... And watching out for bears.



The dwindling fall leaves captured my attention and I had to capture this rare photo opportunity. I love taking photos of things that people don't usually pay any mind to.



Not the best, but I think I like it.



The sun peeking through the barren tree tops, the glare really hurt my eyes! (smiles)

And now for some beach photos, oh how I miss and long for the beach!!



A lone shell with tiny little foot marks scattered about.



Wild flowers were in full bloom and brought such lovely color to the slightly grey day we spent on the beach.



This boastful flower was just begging for some attention so I took its photograph. It seemed quite pleased with itself after that.



My baby brother Brayden with the biggest grin. He was smiling because my other little brother Jacob was making silly faces, and because he was sitting on the wall all by himself... that made me a bit scared!



Jacob pushing Brayden at the playground/beach.


And that is all for now!! I didn't realize how homesick I was until I was browsing through all of my old photos, I long to go back home sometimes. But I hope you enjoy the photos I've taken and maybe next time I will have a few more posted, more recent ones of course.  

(All photos were taken with my cell phone)